what exactly went wrong between us?
i thought family should live in harmony?
is it the way i communicate with her?
or the way her attitude changes?
it really hurts me much when i see her behaving this way.
when will we grown up and understands one another well?
when do we start understand people and cares about their feelings?
seeing so much things recently, i began to reflect..
am i the same when i'm at her age?
to be honest, at least 75% similar..
rebellious, talking back, staying out late..
but in the end, i believe i had grown up and change.
i began to understand how hard money is earned,
how hard to be parents and how it feels to be unrespected.
i began to tolerate whenever i feel like talking back..
cos i know the feeling of being talked back by others suck!
being parents isn't easy.. have to worry about their students and slog your life away just to make sure they had enough money to spend and for their education.
recently, my family faced a big crisis..
we owed others a huge amount but nevertheless..
as being part of the family, i believe i should put in effort to help..
thanks to dear.. he contribute the most amount to help my family..
we withdrawn all our savings and do our part..
my eldest sister did help by contributing some too..
i know my other two sisters are still young..
but they can do their part by spending less now..
i really hope they will understand this..
had a fight with my younger sister when i was telling her to stay at home for her 'N' level..
we all know that 'N' and 'O' is one of the BIG examination in our life..
how can we take it so easily?!
I spoke in a proper tone and she just fall in a deaf ears..
since she insisted her stand..
i reason it out with her.. in a nice tone not shouting or what..
in the end.. "GET LOST" and "Crazy" was her reply..
was super hurt then..
i'm trying very hard to be a good sister..
giving her expenses.. getting her her favourite stuffs..
she love taking pictures, i bought her a camera although it's spoil already and she dunno the reason why it spoil..
she or her bf being bullied, i stand by them..
i do not scold her or what and i'm really trying my best to do all my part now..
as a daughter, a sister, a girlfriend and a friend..
i'm really trying my best, i know.
from a rebellious and rude girl, to one who helps the family and cares for the family now..
from a wouldn't care much sister, to one who pays extra attention to her sisters now..
from one who will be unreasonable and crazy whenever her bf is with his friends, to one who is understanding and is happy for his boy being with his best brother..
from one who seldom take the effort to meet up with friends, to one who is always the first one to initiate a gathering..
typed all this after the fight with her..
i still love her...
pardon me for the long post..
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